Happy New Year!
I hope 2019 is off to a great start for everyone. Be ready to smile more this year, accomplish all of your goals and get everything you have ever wanted, whether it’s becoming who you have always imagined or even if it’s something materialistic. Go after it all and don’t stop until you get it. Overall, I hope everyone is ready to win this year because that’s exactly what is going to happen. I don’t know what it is, but I can just feel it, this year is going to be the year that things fall into place beautifully.
I spoke briefly about how I felt about 2018 in my first Youtube video entitled, “GRWM|Everyday Makeup… Let’s Talk About 2018,” but following my video, some unfortunate events occurred in my life and oddly they happened 3 days before the new year started. On December 28th, my sweet dog, Diesel passed away. He was eleven years and three months old and he passed away from cancer that developed in lungs. I am still trying to wrap my head around everything because it all happened so fast. He was originally diagnosed with bronchitis and the doctor also said he was anemic, but the doctor stated that neither was life-threatening.
However, on Christmas Eve, my mom and I took him to the vet again because he was not making any improvements. The doctor decided to take an X-ray, which led her to notice that there were spots on his lungs, which led her to suggest that we take him to an animal hospital immediately. Following our visit to the animal hospital, the doctor informed us that Diesel had cancer.
Diesel was the most amazing dog ever! And I don’t say that just because he was my dog, but he was truly a blessing and I am so grateful to have been his mom for eleven years. His death takes a major toll on me because we were both so obsessed with each other. Whether people knew us or not they always told me that you could tell we had more than a bond, it was genuine love between us. But I am so happy he is no longer in pain and I am so proud of him for pulling through for as long as he did. My family was able to see him one last time and that was on Christmas Day. Despite how he was feeling he always woke up in the greatest of spirits. I love him so much and I really miss him dearly.
I decided to mention Diesel in this post because, although this is hurting me I feel like the stars needed to be aligned this way if that makes sense. It feels as if God wanted to give me the biggest wake-up call and also prevent me from bringing certain energy into 2019. What I mean by this is, Diesel and 2018 have taught me several lessons. One of them is to not take advantage of time and to also live my life purposely. As I think about Diesel’s personality and his life, I realized that life is meant to be lived and not taken for granted. Become the best version of yourself and do whatever it takes to get you to where you want to be. Whatever form or level of happiness you desire, work towards it. Don’t stand in the way of yourself and be who you were always meant to be. I use to talk to Diesel as if he could understand me and I would always tell him about the things I would want us to have. I would tell him that I was going to get my Jeep Wrangler soon so he could ride in the passenger and sit comfortably on the leather seats and that I would get my own place that we would call our home. I considered him my child, so that should tell you how strong our bond was. Although he is no longer here with me, I am not only going to manifest these things but really work to get it!
My word for 2019 is consistency! I just want to be consistent with everything that I want to do but most importantly with my thoughts and focus. Last year, I felt as though I let too many unnecessary things cloud my thoughts and distract me from what was really important. I did achieve several goals, one of the biggest ones was launching Sostylash.com, but I just think I spent too much time focusing on things that were out of my control. In 2019, I really want to focus on the things that truly make me happy and make me feel whole. I believe that if my thoughts are in line there’s no reason why I can’t become the woman I have always wanted to be.
I want you all to join me as I break 2019 up into three parts, Refocus, Reenergize, and Reactivate!
No matter how long it takes I am always going to make sure that I always refocus my energy. I want to practice it so that it becomes second nature to me. I would say that we are all currently in the refocus stage right now. Everyone is gathering pieces of their 2019 puzzle to help them create the best year for themselves. If I happen to come across a situation or even someone that rubs me the wrong way I refuse to give all of my energy to it or them. Sometimes people do certain things because all they know is negativity. That doesn’t need to be what you know or what you surround yourself with. Sometimes it can also be the fact that they want to see you down and out because they know your potential. They want the recipe to how you are capable of being yourself unapologetically and not feel how they may feel about themselves. No matter what it is, it’s all distractions. Put your energy to good use and focus on you and what makes you happy.
When I think about re-energizing I think about getting back to truly being myself. It has been a while since I have only had to really care for myself. I will always have people in my life that I will consider, but as I go into the new year without Diesel, I feel like 2019 will shape me for who I was always destined to be. I may not have it all figured out yet, but I can already tell that God has prepared me for my new normal as well as the next 365 days of my life. I have already promised myself that I will give my body some serious TLC. Taking better care of my skin, exercising regularly and really staying consistent with my diet. That is probably the most cliche New Years resolution, but I know what my body has the potential to look like and I refuse to stop until I get it there.
With reactivating I just want to get back to myself ideally. I look at all of the lessons I learned and moments that occurred in 2018 as a way of charging me up for this very moment and preparing to be the warrior I know that I am. I overcame every trial and tribulation that occurred in 2018 and by the grace of God, I am still standing! Before you react to any moment this year think about it and take it in. I can speak for myself and say that there are multiple things that don’t require a reaction so think about what you are reacting to before you give it your energy. Optimism is also key! Preparing for the worst is great, but focusing on the positive aspect of things is greater!
I wish you all a healthy and happy new year! I pray that it is filled with nothing but joy, love, and success. I know it will be. No matter what happened in 2018, it didn’t break you down in actuality it was only helping to build you up so that you could be prepared for and deserving of all the blessings that will be bestowed upon you in 2019!
All photos were taken by @lifeasro_.